CHRISTmas!

Have you ever noticed how many people say happy holidays instead of Christmas? It is really annoying. It is the birth of Christ and yet everyone celebrates just getting gifts and santa instead of Jesus being born. I think it should just be about Jesus. Not Santa. Jesus IS the reason for the season! Will you join me in choosing to celebrate the birth of Christ and not just getting gifts and santa coming?

Changed Forever...

I have been thinking lately of the person I used to be.......

I am completely different. I have way more self confidence then I used to. I don't care what people think of me just as long as I know what my God thinks about me. I am not afraid to be disliked. I used to struggle when I was told that so and so didn't like me or so and so thinks your ugly. But now I don't care, because I know I'm beautiful in my own way.

My situation with my friends was way different. I would just follow them around and act and think how they did and not how I should. I wasn't the chang I should have been, instead I just followed along and became the person I used to be. I was dirty minded, and I didn't really like myself. I always felt bad after hanging out with them and listening to all their drama. I felt slimmed as my Mom likes to put it. But now I am totally different!!! I can't stand being around some of the people I used to be around all the time. I stick up for myself and don't participate and follow in the crap that I used to. I think back to some of the things I would do and think why?? Was I that stupid??

But now......I am the young woman I want to be. I have a relationship with my God, I don't worry about anything, I am not afraid to be disliked. I am beautiful both inside and outside which I am finding is becoming even more rare by the second! I have no one to thank but my God! I wouldn't be alive to this day without him. I wouldn't be who I am without Him. Thank you God for rescuing me! :D

I have gone from this insecure girl to......

This beautiful and confidant young woman.

I obviously had a little help along the way. Thanks to my Mom and Dad who have always been there and supported me. Thank you Hannah for being the best friend in the whole wide world. Thank you Noelle for always listening even when it was the 5th time I'd told you it. lol. And thank you to all my friends who have been there in the tough times! I love you guys!

Crazy or Beautiful??

Back in the end of June/the beginning of July my life was beyond crazy!!!! It started off with losing my Best friend! Then at our annual July 4th party my brother was found out to be using drugs. It didn't stop their either. My Grandma fell and broke her hip and had to go through surgery that we didn't know if she would make it through, and if she did then it would be very tough recovery. So you could easily say that my life was totally falling apart at the seams. I didn't know if I'd make it through. But God had different ideas for me.
Though the month or so sucked beyond sucking. I made it through. A little bruised, but those healed as things began getting better. I gained a friend who challenged me to actually read my bible and spend time with God every night and not just a couple nights here and there. My family and I went to a conference with Heidi Baker and it changed all of our lives!!! I experienced him in ways I didn't know I could. My brother decided to quit using drugs and is clean to this day. Finally my Grandma made it through surgery and is doing pretty good. She can't do much on her own anymore, but she is still alive and kicking.
So over all my life worked itself out. It went from being crazy and very terrible. To being Beautiful. I don't regret anything that happened that month or the couple after it. I know now that if it weren't for that time I wouldn't be who I am today without those experiences! My life went from crazy to beautiful all because of a God who cares.

Bummers......

One of the few bummers about having more than one sister is that if you just so happen to be closer to one or have a different relationship with another. Then the other is Jealous. I have 2 sisters and I love them both equally. But my relationship is way different with both of them. But I sincerely love them both!!!! We have had our tough times. Each of them have gone through their spurts of being pains in my butt and I am sure that there will be more to come. But i will forever love them!

I am on the top and in the middle is Hannah, then the bottom is the baby of my family, Noelle. We love each other more then anyone ever could! But there are sort of those times where you fight with one or you just simply disagree and decide not to forget it. lol. But either way I know nothing could pull us all apart. Ever!!!

My Bestie!

My best friend in the whole world is my sister Hannah. She is the best sister a girl could wish for and even though she is adopted, she is just as much a part of my family as anyone could be! She is always there for me! When I don't know who to turn to I know I can count on her to be there for me. She is 22 years old.

This is a picture of both of us in our Angry bird shirts.

We have the best of times. I wouldnt trade her for the world!!!! I love you Hannah!!!

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